About Me
my life
Sunday, January 31, 2010
2ND ALBUM
new album from girl's generation~cutie!muacks....haha.....
oh!oh!oh!oh!oh!
yesterday was watching 'concerto autumn' episode 13...
sad...sad...sad....
i wonder to know how is the ending!!!
to be continue later....
how my holidays,
MONDAY,
dance dance~practice ba....cmon!
long time din't danceeeee~
my bone....@@
fall in music in my holiday...
k-pop,nice~
mtv...so many pretty gals and leng zai!!hahaha...
my life, msn , facebook ,sleep,shopping, driving~
nothing else~=.='''
tui fei's life come back to me~^^
i miss my stress ~
later start my lesson~
TAMADUN....next sem pro in this subject!!!wahhahaha....
a bit crazy.....
mami bought already many 年饼....
keep eat and eat....
getting fatter and fatter!!!mum mum....change to my job le!!!miko~haiz......
i miss you!!!don't find me~@@
i wanna stop it!!!!i don wanna miss you....argh~
sorry to gorgor ya~
yesterday i was watching drama din't realize handphone was rang!@@
sorry.....
ah soon~sorry,miss me also i forgot replied~TT....
addicted in drama le....
TOMORROW....
STUDIO~LET'S DANCE!^^
Saturday, January 30, 2010
我又被送回人间地狱了。。。
电脑也忘了带，留在家了。。
就这样，专心读书一个星期，应该是天的安排~
很顺利的，这星期的考试还算不错。。。
嗯。。。
第一课foa。。。
在宿舍过夜，第一次为了应付考试那么拼命！
婷婷，盈盈，amanda ,amy~
我们在宿舍食堂打战从十二点正到凌晨五点钟！
这是一个回忆，人生第一次那么认真。。是好的开始。。。
谢谢amy 让我和amanda 留宿。。。哈哈。。。
考完试，
跟了一大班姐妹。。
到 genting klang ！聊天吃东西放松一下下~
下半场，jason 带我们去吃西餐，wangsa walk。。。
嗯。。。
老实说，我不敢单独对着他。。。
感觉很陌生，不过，没关系，就酱啦。。。
其实，还没得到我要的答案。。。
可能，一切已成为过去了。
只是曾经。。。成熟面对，不用想了。。。
第二天
玲，欢到Jusco 陪我们读书，可能是环境，
也许是她们，让我顺利完成我最怕的BMS。。。
原来，只不过是这样。。。
希望可以雪耻吧。。。
谢谢你们。。。lolx
第三天，
早上，准备好了。。。
到学校复习一下下就去迎战 啦。。。
果然，运气很好，我都应付得来！
笑了一整天，
那是成就感，满足感，还是什么呢？
也许什么都不是，是，我彻底放下了。。。
很轻松，不用在牵挂，烦恼，生活就是如此的简单。。。
虽然偶尔会放不下，
想想看，为什么把自己搞得那么可怜？放下，是解药。。。
连续的考试，
第四天，
最后一天了，很早就起身上网了，但是，我要的人没祝福我。。。
已经习惯了，反正没那么重要。。。
大概早上七八点钟，收到了温馨的信息，我爱你们！我真的很累了。。。
进入考场，看见熟悉的同学，我们一起完成这个学期最后的旅程吧。。。
结束了一切。。。
突然感觉空虚无聊。。。
连续血拼了两天，走到脚也累了，但是，我得到了快乐。。。
享受过程，与朋友们一起玩，一起疯狂~
我的快乐，会回来的。。。啦啦啦啦啦啦~
lolx...
买买买。。。
今天休息吧，明天再继续。。。
我！真的累了！！！
‘不要劝我放弃，因为我已经放不了手，我已爱上你了‘。。。
这是‘下一站幸福’对白，
很感触，也许她说的对。。。
‘当有一天，我不再逼自己去忘记你，我就会慢慢痊愈’。。。
这也是另一套戏的对白，
为什么编剧们总是那么的感性？搞到观众伤心，泪水交加~这是为什么？？？
也许，是人生经历，也许，是真实故事。。。
也许，我们真的发生过一样的状况。。。
也许已经没有也许。。。
我的人生就因此改变了。。。
失去才懂得珍惜，
以前，曾经玩得过火，曾经伤害别人。。。
世界真的有报应！
不允许自己再玩了，当回以前那个被人欺负，也很开心的我。。。
才是真正的我！^^
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
today is the day i sleep well n sweet in this week~
er...
i recieved a lot of message from my primary school friends...
i getting blur blur
just wake up and get shocked~
she gave me a BIG BIG supprise~
message show tat我怀孕了... i was sweating and my brain was blanked sudden!
@@
tat was a joke!!damn it....
si ba po~play me!!!
i alrd 2 days no sleep well ...play me pula~=='''
lolx.....
luckily but tat was nt a truth~
if really i might faint~!lolx....
after exam,we went to genting klang makan yesterday...
lolx...
1 gang of 38 po~
nice...
the feel not bad~
first time my gang don't have boy~lolx
join gal gang also not bad~
i never tried b4~@@
the 2nd round~
another gang....
lolx....v went makan steak....
full....
but happy....
after tat v went to the wangsa walk too....
er...1st time...
3rd round A&W...
lolx....
might be a pig soon~
control control~
later go jusco study with my darling~
lolx....wait for me!coming now lu~muacks~
Saturday, January 23, 2010
i was down last night~because of ITS???
i don't tink so....
haha....just a 美丽的误会。。。
erm...
my 6 sense told me that was not a truth~
@@
haiz...
depend on sense always~dying soon...
something to tell here~
sry...i did something wrong!
play a fool on him...
i am so guilty~what can i do now???
let me think think~
i wan a perfect way to decide it!!!
let's we stop here,no way to continue...i am so sorry!
i can't cheat myself that....
en...i try to love myself...
sin yin~haha....please join my single club~free of charge~lolx...
insomnia yesterday,
i cried...=='''
what the reason i cry???
swt....
wake up!!!sei chun~@@
afterward on9~
met yin yin n khong meng lepak on fb!lolx....
and also meiyin!!
around 4 something~ only got the sleepy feel~haiz....
the eye bag become bigger day by day~XD
that was a nite i felt sad can't sleep well!@@
it's okay....everything will be fine!
i did it~nothing change alrd!
just can solve the problem!and also brave to face it...hehe....
hope the next time don you meet again a gal bad like me~==
there is nothing left to say but I AM SO SORRY...
haiz....
play safe,hurt more~don play next time!haha....
you're still my best friend no doubt~
nothing change forever~
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刚刚看了我们以前所拍的照片..
很好笑,我们好像都长大了...
我们都变了...
一切只剩下回忆,蛮想念以前的我们,简简单单的生活....
一夜长大,
我也变了,但是,试着变回以前的自己...
我会很快乐...
哈哈...
我回来了,原来,我想要回去,不想变成回忆...
大声喊,大声哭...
是很幸福的!一切,笑过,哭过,爱过,恨过,痛过,伤过...
已过...byebye!
愿你心里有个我...那已足够...^^
Friday, January 22, 2010
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..................................
wat the hell i am reading~!!
keep memories n read n read....
repeat and repeat!!!i am so boring!!!!!
i wanna shout!!!!!
i am so scare~
ITS...
wat the fish subject!!!!
haiz.....damn it~
i just hope can pass it!
hope god bless me~sayang me cmon~
mama!!!i m missing u again~
i m suffering!!!
insomnia soon~
haiz................
release here~c whether can cure anot!=.='''
oops...
i missed my breakfast n lunch~
save money,keep fit~
GOOD~~
i am hungry~
but i got no mood to eat~
ish...................
anyone can let me punch?????hahaha....
joke!haiz.....i go knock my head 1st...
wake up!!!TAN SHEN NEE!!!!!!!!
fearful ...haiz.....
i must overcome this bad feel!!!
go away~get out from my life!!!!
can i back to the life when i still was a baby?
nothing to worry~
very happy~
very free...
but now~
worry worry and worry~=.='''
not happy.
not free....
haha....
don complain more~
later blamed by mama....
sry sry~
haiz......
Thursday, January 21, 2010
我已回到原点。。。
失去的一切，回来了。。。
珍惜现在所拥有的，可能，将来会后悔。。。
不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有~
我们，已经回到了从前~
可能将来的路很辛苦，但是，已经踏出了第一步~
没有回头路了。。。
我要的，只不过是现在这种平平凡凡的生活~
HAHA...
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
MACROECONOMIC~
er.....
god!!!help me let me pass it~i don wan to resit!TT...
haiz...alrd past!!!won't change anything~again!!!JUST LET IT BE...
MAMA....I WANNA CRY~~SERIOUSLY!!mum i am missing u~
i regret that,i was no studied yesterday~~wat i was doin!!!ish.......
anyway,thx my cousin ALVON ,n leng lui amy~
they taught me before i sat for the paper!!TT...
thank you~
woke up at 6 something in the morning ...
try my best to memories all the note!!
but, useless!!!
my brain was blank and i don't understand what i read n highlight!
i was so emo !argh~~~~~
tis morning,a lot of my friends came and ask me about the 'in the relationship' on fb!!
i was sweat~
i don't really know what's going on....@@
er....ar......
r u purposely go put it too???==''''
many of them already misunderstood about that !!!
i don't mind!not the 1st time~whatever!!!just for fun....my friends~
WOOD!!!don play with me~
later 掉入黄河洗不清~don't u blame me....
just back from genting klang~
visited to huang huang home!!nice...
full of 'home feel'...haha...
we sang the ‘你为什么说谎’together!!lol
i like that song very much!!!the high pitch...awesome!!wow~haha...
let's challenge....
now only i realize that,my ex primary school fren...miss ru yee~
is the 1 members of the 'V' ,is a malaysia new band!!
lolx....
er...my chat box might burst soon!!
'THX ' for kacau...=='''
i was shocked when i saw your message there...
u know that i still in the world??0.0
the distance getting far and far ,day by day....
stop here....
MOOD GONE BAD! @@
good nite my dear ....
meet you in my dream again~haiz....
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
well...
i knew everything from mr K yesterday...
how to say it..
awesome and curious er.... to my classmates.....
there's nothing to be surprised at...@@
simply followed the herd,the story become messy n messy....lolx...
i was humbled by the consciousness~
erm...bt alrd promised that ...
never mind just pour my heart to you two!fren ma....^^
i m "glad" of it....i never knew that i was so famous@@
it's okay,this is human natural reaction!lolx....
maybe is 报应,i can accepted it....
i just wan shout out:"nowadays how cum teenagers become so 'eight'?????"
it's a culture for teenagers....erm,i know that!!haha....
i missed the feel in the middle of the night~
forced by the agonising stimulus into precocious though transitory power last day!!!
just....LET IT BE。。。。
过去让他过去！lolx
i see it clearly...
my heart in unsurrection ,brain was in tumult....
but it is over....
and then i realize that,
i was wrong sense with the case !!swt alot....
but i don think that i need a explanation for it...
even that wood won't care...haha....
why not just let it be a joke!@@...lolx
funny ...
i wan you know,"bro,the wrong feel toward you er.....sorry! interrupt you for so long time? ...."
izit very funny,haha...donno swt alot ba....
And da....
miss A,
lolx.....shout out that....
WAT M I FOR HER???
izit that is a good question....i think so...
appear the question on her mind ,i dont really think she will happy....
full of curiousness ,sadness, disappointed ~
i know that very well the same fate is in front us....
nothing can do that...
can u don mind it?can u don go care it?the answer is....definitely NO!
ya,i know that....erm....so u know what is视而不见？try it,u will be getting better~
after i deleted that,
i will miss ,i will think of it...
ALWAYS....
i think no cure,play a salient role in my mind~
what can do for it,just can we act like see nothing...
izit i really dont care about it...
en....I DON TINK SO.....
i will envy that,jealous and so on......
i just only wan join in the happiness life~
come and find me!HAHA....
optimistic to face the life ,face the problem is coming ~
taught by miss L....
friendship never be apart from me...
friendship indeed....
haha....
can make me go into a unconscious situation!!!getting blur and blur~
hey guys....
i am fall in love with that....
???????lolx....
ya...is u~
start my work to write a lyric~name it be'第二个我'....
after sem break i m going to be a WRITER...hahha.....
hooray~might not free,anyone wan to date me plz make appointment to my secretary~
cny getting near and near....
19 years old coming day by day~
haiz....
ADMIT tat....i old jor~@@
好了啦，今天无可奉告。。。
下回再见。。。byebye~
我要我要我要问。。。。到底有多少人在'讨论‘着我？？？不对不对，是’关心‘。。。
哈哈。。。有胆就来问当事人，我，在这里！！！lolx
Monday, January 18, 2010
i tink tat was a ending of the story...
let it go...
let it be....
just don care abt it!
the world is so reality tat we must know!
and also face the problem tat unexpected in my life...
is the time i wake from the nightmare,
is the time i give up all the thg....
en....
i did it again....
take the knife to make a scar...
maybe tat was a memory in my life!
sweet and bitter!
newborn ,new style,new image....
vy soon .....
quit my facebook,no doubt!
wan to stop everythg and i must ,i should prove it ....
i can....
what i said ,what i do...
even though i miss,
also have to quit it from my life....
I MISS YOU...
u,
alrd lost,
alrd gone...
my best fren,where you go???
i have to praise you!
ur ENDURANCE SKILL....
is incredible~
if you proud of it,then nth else i can say....
cut it off....
be apart from me!
........
stop here temporarily~
LAST,
thx to all my frens....
sry and ....
thx for the console,
care me,
scold me....
i try to find back myself....
let time to release...
I WAN MY HAND PHONE RING.....
haha....
was rang just nw...
although no point.
at least,
rang alrd.....@@
Sunday, January 17, 2010
几时开始变得那么寂寞？
sem2 吧。。。
上学，睡觉，吃饭，每天重复不断重复。。。
其实，感觉很不好！
但是，可以怎样呢？假装坚强，逞强，‘我可以的’。。。
真的可以吗？
怀疑者，迟疑着。。。
一个人吃饭，一个人看电视，一个人睡觉，一个人对电脑笑！！！
没有对象讲话，没有人一起吃东西，没有人和我分享喜悦。。。
空虚寂寞无奈。。。
连一个知己都没有~
什么感觉，对着电脑发泄，对着电脑掉泪，对着电脑伪装一个很快乐的自己。。。
其实，快乐吗？我不快乐。。。
假装若武其事，是我的强项，的确。。。因为只有这样，才能骗自己的日子好过一些。。。
犯贱，人类，果然犯贱。。。不！是我很犯贱。。。
明明很多人在关心，但是，还是得不到我要的安慰。。。
忧郁症，这个，是忧郁症的特征码？我很害怕，万一真的疯掉了，怎么办？
最近，睡觉也只是两三个小时，很想念那种赖床的感觉，离我而去了。。。
脑袋里，只装满了，伤心难过的回忆。。。
有时想结束掉自己的生命！好让自己不用在痛苦。。。
写了这些东西，我也不是要人家的同情，我只不过是，真的找不到一个好好的听众让我发泄。。
有些事情，子女长大了，很难告诉父母情，有苦说不清。。。
什么是心痛，心真的会痛。。。小时候，常听到得心痛，以为只是一个形容词，原来，长大了，才明白什么是心痛。。。
痛苦，又痛又苦，听起来也只不过是小事，但，一旦痛苦找上了门，让你知道什么是真正的同，什么是真正的苦。。。
世界本来就不公平，有人可以快乐一世，有人痛苦一世。。。
为什么会快乐，因为对自己的生活状况已经无要求。。。
为什么会难过，因为对自己的生活状况彻底的失望。。。
虽然，伤心也是一天，快乐也是一天。。。为什么我在我的生活里，没有选择题，只有一个答案-伤心。。。
让我有选择的机会，让我快乐。。。
女孩的心，真的是所谓小时候听的玻璃心吗？是与否，因人而异。。。
但是，的确，我拥有一颗玻璃心，经不起考验，很容易的被打碎了。。。
伤得粉身碎骨，偏体鳞伤。。。
再来，最近都发恶梦。。。梦境竟是身边的人！
醒来之后，分不清是现实世界还是梦。。。
生来体质虚弱，是我的错吗？
我也想健康！只不过，我真的有感觉，我会痛，呕吐，头昏目眩。。。并没虚言。。。(yz 叫我注明：我的手很强！@@）
为什么总觉得我在骗人呢？拿自己的健康状况来开玩笑，很好玩吗？
女孩的第六感很准，这也是因人而异，但是，为什么我要是准的那一个呢？
感觉很准，我跟着感觉走。。。
有时，是好事，有时，我不想要有感觉。。。
感觉不到世界的东西，好像会比较快乐。。。
一个充满了怨言的人，是不会感到快乐的。。。的确，这个是事实！
一个爱计较的人，也不会快乐。。。
人，踏错了一步，就没有回头路。。。
没有一个道歉的机会，没有一个能原谅自己的空间！
勇气是有限，是会用完的，把勇气使用完了，会很累。。。
累了不代表没事，只是暂时的麻木。。。
累了不代表清醒，只是暂时的逃避。。。
我完全不了解自己，不明白要的是什么，人生目标是什么，活着是为了什么~
我不快乐！！！！！！！！！！！请问到底为什么？？？？？请问到底为什么？？？？？请问到底为什么？？？？？请问到底为什么？？？？？
请问到底为什么？？？？？请问到底为什么？？？？？
请问到底为什么？？？？？请问到底为什么？？？？？
请问到底为什么？？？？？请问到底为什么？？？？？
请问到底为什么？？？？？请问到底为什么？？？？？
我不知道。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
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